I'm starting to get really excited about getting my van. Although it's by no means definite that I'll buy it next weekend, I can't wait to at least go and see a potential buy. Looks like insurance will be less than I pay now which was surprising despite it being left-hand drive and old.
At the same I'm aware that it's not really a stress-free purchase: I need to learn a lot more about car maintenance, especially VW T25 maintenance, and keep on top of this for as long as I have the van. I also have to think a bit more about work during my adventure because I'm not going to be able to wild camp that much...
But I have thought of the book I'm going to write though. It's going to be a collection of short stories based upon what arises from my Zazen. Each chapter will start with something factual and then there'll be a short story to illustrate the point. The plan is to write weekly. The last chapter of the book will just be factual without a story to illustrate the point. So, the book becomes a metaphor for Zen practice, taking the drama out of real life. Sounds a bit pretentious and will probably change though...
I had 2 bottles of Sol beer tonight with a friend - I haven't drunk anything for months - and I seem to be writing like a child. So I'll stop right after this full-stop.
Just before I settle down to watch the second instalment of X-Factor this weekend, I thought I'd write about how incredibly annoying it is.
In an hour and a half long show, you usually get 6 commercial breaks, 4 recaps, 5 random clips of contestants mid-song, 5 interviews with tearful contestants, and 2 depressing back stories. Interspersed with all this, is the singing. There's not much singing at all really. And the speed and noise of the whole thing. Everything is ultra-fast and ultra-noisy, as if the producers think we'll switch over if there's not loads of noise and exciting pictures.
I don't know about you, but all this makes it quite unpleasant to watch. Because of the obsession with making it really exciting, it's completely lost its excitement. It's TV for idiots!
Right, it's going to start soon so I'd best be off...
I was reminded today while watching Gardener's World, of a girl with red hair I used to like at middle school. I can't remember really talking to her much but at the end of term disco we arranged to have a dance at the end - a slow dance.
Throughout the night I looked forward to our slow dance and then right before the moment came, my mate's dad came to pick us up and take us home. I wasn't happy and rushed out before saying good-bye to the girl.
When I got home, I burst into tears and Dad took me back down to have my slow dance with the girl.
At that age, I wasn't especially into girls, or boys. I think I just liked playing tennis and skateboarding. But for some reason I really liked this girl. And I still remember that feeling. What was it about her?
In a way that feels kind of special. But in reality I have about a 1000 crushes a day, so I guess it's just the fondness of looking back...